Found this today...

My Mom, she tells a lot of lies she never did before
From now until she dies, she'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my mom how she is and because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mom how she is, She'll say "I'm alright."                                                  

If that's the truth, than tell me why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mom how she is, she seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see, nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mom how she is,"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mom, just tell the truth just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life, I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how is she she'll lie and say she's fine.

I am here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.

If she lies to you don't listen, hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again, we'll smile and I'll be bold.

I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here mom, with all the lies you told!"

- Author Unknown

January 21, 2012

It's been exactly one month since we lost our baby.  And it doesn't hurt any less.

January 2, 2012

It is such a relief to have a new year to look forward to.  2011 was a relatively good year for us, but it was totally overshadowed by our loss at the end.  Although I've been trying to count my blessings, it's been hard to stay positive when I feel so empty inside.

I have great hopes for this new year, that we will continue to be blessed with health, family, and friends.  This year I hope to manage my health better, and to be a better wife, friend, teacher, sister, and daughter.  I will try to find time to pray more, love more, and learn more.  Thank goodness for the promise of a new year.