Guilty

I am feeling super guilty for taking an illness day today. But after a week of that lady sitting her @$$ on the computer table without giving so much as a glance to the students, I just.couldn't.take.it.anymore!

I'm sad that I'm not with the kids, but my frustration with her was making me a really mean and b*tchy person and I started to see myself taking it out on the kids. :(

I'm not sick today, but I feel AWFUL.

Boo. :(

It's never good when you're called into the principal's office -- as a kid, or as a teacher.

I've officially been pinkslipped. Bummer, because I really thought I stood a chance. Fortunately at this point it's just a formality. Everything is still up in the air, the district hasn't decided yet how/if they will cut teachers, so at this point I will twiddle my thumbs until June 24th, when I receive final notice if I will be laid off.

Please pray for me. Or cross your fingers and your toes, if that's your thing.

Deep breaths...

This week is a bit of a tough one to get through. The deadline for the district to pass out pink slips is this Friday so it's a bit of a waiting game for me to get mine. On top of that, part of my work now includes working on the school budget and brainstorming ways to save money. We've already cut copies down to 200 per/teacher per/month (wtF!?) and figuring out ways to cut more drastically.

I'm trying so hard not to complain and to do the best I can. I know I should be grateful that I still have a job and that I'm still working, but I can't help but feel a huge pit in my stomach as I go to school each day. Sometimes it feels like I'm walking to my own funeral.

Weekend Recap

Friday:

- spent a lot of time at work cleaning up/setting up. left at almost 6pm
- sister came over and we hung out for a bit while she waited for her rehearsal to start
- J came up from Irvine to join us for dinner at Captain Crab (Boiling Crab was way too busy!) yummy, but could be better

Saturday:
- up and at 'em early to have breakfast with my coworker friends at Heritage Cafe in Lakewood. so yummy. so fattening. i am a big fat cow.
- back home and attend little K's bday party with the hubby. so many cute and adorable babies! took tremendous willpower not to eat anything.
- took our fat dog for a walk
- drove down to Long Beach Town Center to eat at Lucille's with K. more fatness. YIKES. but the marinated sirloin steak is SO GOOD.

Sunday:
- lots of cleaning
- grocery shopping
- Thai Tea cupcakes with sister.


seriously must stop eating so much. at this rate i will explode.

I'm a lazy bones.

Things I should be doing right now:
- cleaning the house
- doing laundry
- prepping for class

Things I could be doing right now:
- exercising
- organizing the mess which is my poor excuse for a desk
- scrapbooking
- reading

What I am doing:
- sitting next to Damon, playing on the internet

Productivity = 0. I'm a big fat lazy bones.

I'm getting old.

My eyes have been half closed since 8:30.

I must be getting old. :(